Listen to the words of this song while you read....I make reference to it later in this post....

I have been trying to read Jesus Calling all morning. It is 1pm, just got the kids down for naps and have finally picked it up. Sarah Young very quickly reminded me how trusting HIM is a moment by moment choice. Whenever we see Him move in a mighty way, we trust HIM intensely- but only temporarily . Soon the grumbling begins again. When things go wrong, our trust flow slows down or solidifies. Then we are forced at the fork in the road to stay on the path of life with HIM, or change our path.

Trusting HIM when Josie was so ill was SO easy because I had NOTHING else to cling to. Now that she is full of energy and into EVERYTHING, I grumble, grumble, grumble. I am tired! I am sick of battling with preschoolers, I do not like waking up at 5am to little fingers poking my arm, just to open my eyes and be nose to nose with someone that wants breakfast RIGHT NOW......GRUMBLE, GRUMBLE, GRUMBLE.

And then I look ahead, try to see the "big picture." My oldest (Grace) posted "Born to be somebody" as her status the other night on Facebook. I googled the song by Justin Bieber and it made my heart smile. The normal person, would listen to that song and think about making it big in the world....becoming famous. For Grace it means that there is a part of her that no one really "knows" or understands because half of her heart is in Africa and she can't really be all the God has made her to be until she is serving in that capacity. SO worth the preschool battles and nose to nose mornings! I just have to keep praying that the Lord will use these little ones for HIS glory and that I do not kill them before their time comes to serve..hahaha. In the meantime, I am going to be grateful that God has pierced Graces heart for the things that are the MOST important to HIM. I am going to keep praying that the Lord continues to draw her close to his heart and that during this time, HE will mold her into the perfect wife for someone special and that she will continue to long for the desires of HIS heart and not what our world tells her is the right "social" thing to do.

He tells us over and over that if we will follow HIM, that we will see the fruits from abiding in HIM. When I look into the face of my oldest, it gives me hope and keeps me focused on the next six that are following her. While they are all wonderfully and UNIQUELY made, He has a specific DIFFERENT plan for each and every one of them and I cannot wait to see what it is!

I just hope I am alive to see it and I haven't collapsed from exhaustion!